Dead in the Water

Hey, everyone. This is just a short post to say I’m still around and thinking of the blog, but I’m suffering from ???? that I’m just calling “writer’s block” since that expresses really fast something that is basically correct, except I have been through a lot of writer’s block and know how to deal with it and this is different. I still have plenty to say – I’m still composing blog posts in my head during insomnia hours, and have a couple dozen drafts half finished, or finished but in full-ramble stage where I have to go back and pull out as much ADD as possible.

I don’t know if this means I’m all better now and will resume posting regularly. Honestly, probably not. But my lack of ability to do a lot of writing is super stressing me, especially since I don’t know what’s wrong. With a bit of coaxing from friends, especially  my bestie, I’m trying to give myself permission to just bow out for a bit. Maybe the problem is depression (though I don’t think so? I’m preeetty familiar with my own depression and it just doens’t feel like that’s the problem…) or the fact that my two-year-old is really picking up on the making sure I have the full mom-of-a-two-year-old experience, or that the TV is now in the living room so I can choose to locate, acquire, and if necessary, steal all the valuables in all of Skyrim while stabbing vampires and past dragonborn jerks who yoink my hard-earned dragon souls. Though I mean major video game distractions are ceeertainly not new at all to me so …? Maybe it’s the positioning of the computer. It’s not great for watching the kid; it’s against a far wall in the living room. Not sure where else to move it. Maybe I could pick up a laptop for writing and stuff sometime? I don’t know. I don’t know what my problem is. but I open up a new blog post or Scrivener, stare at the screen, and then close it, either alt tab to something else or just put the computer back to sleep.

Maybe taking time to bow out is really what I need. I’m a stranger to burnout and that doesn’t make sense here either – I wasn’t pushing myself that much and I’ve done far worse with no repercussions. I’m a nine-time NaNo winner, I KNOW writing stress! But maybe it’s not about burnout. Maybe I can’t figure out what’s wrong when I’m pushing myself to do something I just can’t right now and then spending the rest of my time stressing about my lack of progress.

If I can, I’m going to be writing a couple of short stories since some members want to do an anthology. We’ll see if I can’t pick back up from there, eh?

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About Rii the Wordsmith

An aspiring author, artist, avid consumer of storytelling medium, gamer, psychologist (insomuch as one with her bachelor's is a psychologist), wife, mother, DM, Christian, a friend to many, and, most importantly, an evil overlord.
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4 Responses to Dead in the Water

  1. I had this very thing happen with me about six months ago. I couldn’t move forward in my writing and couldn’t blog either. I felt like everything was up in the air and I didn’t know how to fix it. I decided to take a break, which ended up lasting until November. Then I got back to work during NaNo and ended up with about 12K words. I haven’t missed a day of writing since. Breaks can be super helpful.

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    • I’m glad to hear of another writer taking a super long break and then getting back to things. It seems that’s how this is turning out. I know part of it is that I just don’t want to work on the part I need to in my WIP, but…that usually doesn’t lead to a complete halt. And I won’t work on blog posts either so it’s clearly something more. I think I’m going to try having my husband read the first part of the WIP to me because it’s about time I pulled myself out of this slump and ended my break. I like the first few chapters and I like the way he reads stuff. Maybe it’ll get me excited again.

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  2. Writer’s block? Sure can’t tell from this post. 😀
    But seriously, sometimes the creative part of the mind needs rest so it can recharge itself. I think there’s a difference between writer’s block and the creative well running dry, it’s happened to me plenty of times, especially in the early days of my writing. After a break I bet you’ll be writing better than you ever did before.

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    • ^_^ Thanks so much, knowing it’s not just me makes the whole thing less concerning/possibly scary. I’m trying to get my kid and I on a schedule, and incorporate writing time into that schedule (I suck at schedules so it’s slow going) and hopefully, I’ll get writing again soon.

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